Category: depression

Scraping the last utilons out of your miserable existence

Below a slightly edited excerpt from a message in which I suggested to take a long vacation from work: “If I won’t be able to work productively by February at the latest, I will resign from my job, commit myself to a mental hospital and undergo some form of intense therapy. I’m not sure what I’ll

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Category: depression

My Experiences with Tranylcypromine: The Most Powerful Antidepressant Ever?

First written: April 2017. Last updated: October 2017. Introduction Tranylcypromine (brand name: “Parnate“) is a nonselective and irreversible monoamine oxidase inhibitor (MAOI) used to treat major depressive disorder. See this previous post of mine about MAOIs (written in 2013). Prophetically enough, I wrote: “So my current plan is to first try Moclobemide and then Selegiline. If

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Category: depression

Depression Reveals the Truth: We Live in the Abyss

[Epistemic status: Just poetry, written in a nihilistic mood. Don’t take it so seriously.] When you are in the midst of a deep depression it’s impossible to do anything other than lie in bed and wish to die. Speaking is difficult, writing impossible. So any piece of writing about depression will always be false. False,

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Category: depression

The Good Drug Guide and the Holy Grail of Chemical Paradise: MAOIs

[Epistemic status: MAOIs probably are the most powerful antidepressants – more evidence for this can be found in an excellent recent post on SlateStarCodex.] I’ve recently read the absolutely excellent classic “The Good Drug Guide” by David Pearce. Pearce is a hardcore transhumanist whose ultimate goal is to abolish all suffering. Even better, he’s not shying away

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